We Stupid Apes
An Irish Catholic despised for having a British accent
A pacifist lambasted for working at the Ministry of Defence
A working class girl, ostracised by kith and kin, for being an Oxford graduate
A five year old Catholic schoolgirl completely friendless because her parents are divorced
A woman who can answer every question on a Mensa test correctly derided for having a problem with her brain
Labelsâ€¦boxesâ€¦brandsâ€¦Call them what you like; they amount to the same thing: a form of shorthand, if you like, or lazy thinking, to ascertain whether a person is worthy of oneâ€™s time and energy. And make no mistake about it, we all do it, whether we realise it or not. Itâ€™s easier, isnâ€™t it? Easier to size another human being up, to put them in a small, tidy package so we donâ€™t have to spend more time than is absolutely necessary getting to know them.
But what happens when there is no box? What of those people who, for one reason or another, do not meet the criteria we have for separating the wheat from the chaff? Are they rendered any less human because they donâ€™t conform; because they donâ€™t meet society's standards?
I have never been to Derry before! This is exciting and a little nerve-racking. I am about to meet my cousin â€“ my fatherâ€™s niece and the only other family member besides my siblings â€“ for the first time. We decided, a few months before, to find out about our grandparents. Like me, her parents moved away from Belfast just as the â€˜Troublesâ€™ were kicking off in a big way. Her mother, it seems, had the same idea as my father: donâ€™t talk about the family. So we never knew what happened to them. But, finally, we are here in Derry and I donâ€™t care what I find because I am just glad to be there. I can go and see the church where our great-grandparents were buried and where our grandparents were married. I should have noticed beforehand the look on my cousinâ€™s face as we park outside one of the churches. She tells me not to speak. It doesnâ€™t take me long to understand why. There are â€˜guardsâ€™ outside the church and, as we are driving back toward Belfast and get lost in the Bogside, the infamous murals portraying men in balaclavas, holding machine guns come in to view. I feel sick and angry. I am never coming back here againâ€¦
â€œEvery day is a compromise! I would resign if I thought I could get a different job which pays the same amount of money. Believe me, Iâ€™ve tried! But thereâ€™s nothing out there.â€
He doesnâ€™t look convinced and embarks on another anecdote:
â€œI was on a course and I met this man from the Ministry of Justice. During the break he asks me how I justify working for the Ministry of Defence when we are bombing Syria. I asked him how he justified locking people up in appalling, overcrowded conditions.â€
â€œWhat was his answer?â€
â€œHe shrugged his shoulders and didnâ€™t answerâ€¦â€
â€œHow do you justify it though?â€
â€œWe are defending the realm.â€
â€œBut if we already know where they are, and those bombs are as precise as everyone says they are, why are we bombing civilians?â€
â€œBecause the terrorists might be disguised as civiliansâ€
â€œSo, how do you distinguish between the two? I mean, not all Muslims are terrorists and not all terrorists are Muslims?â€
He shrugs his shoulders and doesnâ€™t answer.
Helen has a plaster cast on her arm. She let me write my name on it. I asked her how she got it and she told me she broke her wrist. I asked her if her wrist could be mended. She laughed and said that was what the cast was for. She was on her own so I thought she could play with me because I am always on my own. I didnâ€™t tell her about my game though. All the characters have been taken and the story has moved on a lot since I first started playing it. It would have taken up our entire break if I told her! So we just run over to the football field and stop short of the grass slope leading down to it. I like the grass slope. I can roll down it and when I get to the bottom and try to stand up I feel dizzy and have to turn around three times to make the dizziness go away. I ask Helen if she wants to try it too but she canâ€™t because of the cast. So we stand at the top and I ask her more questions about her broken wrist. Iâ€™ve never broken anything before so I donâ€™t see how putting plaster round an arm can mend it. I was just about to ask her but Richard comes over and they run off together. I donâ€™t like Richard. He keeps saying nasty things to me. But I never said â€˜goodbyeâ€™ to Helen! Later on, when itâ€™s home time, Dad is there to walk me home. He waits for me outside the priestâ€™s house, not by the gate where all the mums are, because heâ€™s a man and they are all women; at least thatâ€™s what he tells me. I ask him how plaster can mend a broken wrist but he doesnâ€™t know either even though I can tell heâ€™s thinking about it. Dad is always quiet when heâ€™s thinking about something.
Two years it took her to finish it and, all the while, working various minimum wage jobs because they all seemed to need workers to do the late shifts. That meant she could study in the morning and still work full time hours. By God, did she hate the job in Lidl though! Her first shift, which had to start at 6am because that was when the manager was in to show her the ropes, was the worst. Six hours of packing and unpacking vegetables, non-stop because the other workers had already set the pace; working without gloves and picking out all the rotten ones everyone else had â€˜forgotten.â€™ It was the thought of this day, and only this day, which kept her going. Well, that and her feckless boyfriend, who insisted on spending what little spare cash they had on buying some 'green' off the man living in one of the other bedsits. And there was never enough of that left over after another day of stacking shelves either. Still, she is now only a few steps away from the stage where the certificates are presented, dressed up in her graduation gown (silk of course; they donâ€™t do things by halves here in Oxford) and the customary black skirt and white blouse (who even wears a blouse these days?). One more step and she is on the stage, shaking hands with the vice-chancellor and for a few seconds at least, she is the equal of every other student in the audience. She looks out across the Grand Hall one more time before the next personâ€™s turn but there is no one there she recognizes.
Itâ€™s been three months since I was given my diagnosis and I still feel horrible. Being jabbed with Botox isnâ€™t all itâ€™s cracked up to be. Why do women do it to themselves?! Iâ€™d rather have a few wrinkles and be able to swallow my beer. Speaking of which, here comes another pint, courtesy of John. I am trying to pretend I am having a good time so he feels a little less awkward around his friends. Not an easy task when I have to hold my head with one hand all the time if I want to drink or eat (I have to use both hands if I'm walking). Of all the things I thought would fail me my brain was bottom of the list. Iâ€™m a chain smoker and have yet to decline an offer of a drink or a trip to the nearest pub. I thought it would be a lung or a kidney. Just my luck it has to be the one aspect of me I genuinely like. No one is talking to me so I decide to strike up a conversation with one of Johnâ€™s student buddies. Iâ€™ve met him before but I canâ€™t remember his name; just that heâ€™s training to be a nurse. Apparently, he is longer a student nurse though; he didnâ€™t pass his exams. Iâ€™m not a very good liar but tell him Iâ€™m sorry to hear his career has been put on hold until he can retake them. He asks after me; how am I doing with the PhD? I have to swallow my pride and tell him I didnâ€™t pass my exams either! At that point, maybe because Iâ€™m on my fifth pint, the idea of telling him the real reason for being kicked out seems like a good one. So I tell him: my brain is busted; I can barely walk without stopping every five or ten minutes to catch my breath; and Iâ€™ve never been in so much pain in my life. All my supervisor cared about when I told her was whether the university was going to get its moneyâ€™s worth. There was me thinking professors were meant to be smart! He seems suitably shocked. Thatâ€™s a good sign. At least itâ€™s registered in his mind. When I told John, he spent weeks in denial! For one brief moment, the first in three months, I believe Iâ€™ve found someone who has an inkling of what the doctorâ€™s words mean â€“ really mean â€“ for someone who has only turned 30 and has been placed in the unenviable position of having to learn basic tasks (such as using a knife and fork) all over again. Only thatâ€™s not what I hear. Instead of sympathy or the litany of questions I usually get, this would-be nurse tells me that, were it not for the fact I had been studying for a PhD, he would have thought me retardedâ€¦
Would you believe me if I told you that everything recounted here happened to one personâ€¦? Would you even careâ€¦?
We human beings have a wonderful knack of treating anything different with fear and disdain. You only have to read a history book or pick up a newspaper. Yet, what we fail to understand is that, at the most basic level, we are all different; the sum and total of various gene pools coming together to form something unique. Even identical twins have minor differences in their DNA. But, in being different, we are also all the same. The plethora of distinctions we make between groups of people are completely unnecessary and often wholly inaccurate. The only distinction which truly matters is this: good people and bad people; the only way to find out? Getting to know themâ€¦
Millions of years of evolution and we still cannot learn that one salient fact. We are the most successful species this planet has ever known thus far; we have bent the natural world to our will; we have made monumental advances in technology, medicine, our knowledge of space and the universe. Yet, as a species, we are still animals, subconsciously (or otherwise) ostracizing anyone who might compromise the continued success of our race.
And at the end of it, once the mores of society have been removed â€“ when we no longer feel obligated to be polite, sympathetic or tolerant because the majority in our immediate sphere no longer feels the need to be polite, sympathetic or tolerant â€“ that really is all we are: stupid, stupid apes.
Lorane text: Letâ€™s do text or voice message. Couldnt hear u wifi playing up I think
Keeps throwing me off network
Wayne voice msg: Are you there?
Iâ€™ve had another idea to add to our list
Lorane text: I am but connection falling on and off
Always seems to be the same time of night
Wayne text: Did you get my message?
Lorane text: U have idea?
Wayne text: Yes
An A list idea
Think we should just go for it
Lorane text: It?
Wayne text: It= the idea
Lorane text: ok dont leave me hanging
Wayne voice msg: this is a test to see if youâ€™re getting my voice messages
let me know
Lorane voice: whatâ€™s the idea? not the making coffins for ants idea, i hope
Wayne voice: did you get my voice message? the previous one
Lorane voice: I didnâ€™t get the long one
I got the one before it and the one after it
Wayne voice: Okay, what am I saying? Ging gang goolie goolie goolie.
Lorane voice: Heh heh, I donâ€™t know, something about your goolies. Itâ€™s really slow tonight. Iâ€™m hoping it will be quicker when everyoneâ€™s gone to sleep.
Wayne voice: I know thereâ€™s a delay but when you get the message can you actually hear everything?
Lorane voice: just hurry up and say it
Wayne voice: This is an important announcement. I need to check everything. Testing, testing, do you copy?
Wayne text: hello?
Lorane text: hello
Wayne text: Did you get my message?
Lorane text: which one?
Lorane voice: my patience is really being tested today. one of my messages isnâ€™t loading and...oh Iâ€™ve just got your last one, hold on.
I can hear everything youâ€™re saying. shoot. over.
Wayne text: What's wrong with my coffin idea, anyway, may I ask?
Lorane text: just don't think you're gonna find any takers, that's all
Wayne text: But theyâ€™re a little life. Appreciation of less intelligent life forms is on the increase.
Lorane: Must be why I married you
Wayne: Yes, very funny. Can we take this seriously? An untapped market always seems like a joke at first but just you wait.
Lorane: So they should be buried decently, you think
Wayne: Yes. Well I'm sure they'll think so in Hindu countries... and Norway.
Lorane: Are you going to make the coffins?
Wayne: Theyâ€™re too small. But they could be buried in matchboxes together.
Lorane: Like bodies thrown into a plague pit? Nice
Lorane: Whereâ€™s the dignity in that?
Wayne: Well itâ€™s better than leaving them to rot where they are.
Lorane: In which case, may I suggest that you bulk purchase some matchboxes and get busy? Because there are millions of ants dying in Britain everyday.
So what's this idea? Is it as stupid as your ant coffin idea?
Wayne: Oh yes yes. Right. My idea is right up your street this time. Boring, but I swear it's a money spinner if ever there was one.
Lorane voice: Right Wayne. Don't keep the world waiting. Spill the beans
Wayne voice: Okay. Listen up. Mm erp serb...irish...ha oop...ah...tell...monkeys...nerp ner pit... monkeys an.
Lorane text: Say again
Wayne voice: Yeah no problem nerp....scimple...and um...so what do you think? Monkey.
Lorane text: Not got ur message
Wayne text: Is it showing or not there at all?
Lorane text: no idea what you said apart from yeah so what do u think monkey
Wayne text: Eh?
Lorane voice: The last message you sent it was all broken up. I just heard, â€˜So what do you think?â€™ And then you said, â€˜Monkeyâ€™.
Wayne voice: (Surprised) Oh. Okay, well what...erm...yeah...so thereâ€™s no problem...so all we would have to....monkey....and thatâ€™s it.
Lorane voice: Can you stop saying monkey? What is going on tonight?
Iâ€™ve got to play you this back.
Wayne voice: Lorane, are you okay? I just went into quite some....ail....and then thereâ€™s no response from you and it....so thereâ€™s no.....okay so.....Monkey.....if itâ€™s your idea then thatâ€™s fine. I just need a response.
Lorane text: All ur messages are breaking up i can only pick out monkey words
Wayne text: What are monkey words? Have you been drinking?
Wayne voice: Have you tried standing nearer your Wi-.
Lorane text: Please help me
I AM TRYING TO RESPOND BUT NOTHING IS DOWNLOADING TO U!!!
Wayne voice: -about worth it.
Lorane voice: Seriously, when the voice message is downloaded two blue ticks come up. If you donâ€™t see those ticks I havenâ€™t heard it, okay?
Wayne text: Roger that. You sound ticked off.
Lorane text: Not ticked off, just ****king irritated.
Wayne text: What is the plural of asterix?
Wayne text: Nevermind. Just want to know what those stars mean.
Lorane: Do you think I'll ever get to hear what your idea is? Or are forces conspiring against us?
Wayne text: Well it's funny you should say that because it could be a plot involving WhatsApp and the New World Government. If I die in a car crash you'll know why. I'm serious, Lorane. This idea is red hot and it's going to put noses out of joint. Big time.
Lorane text: I'm all ears. Or eyes. In a nutshell, please
Wayne voice: Okay in a nutshell I've just noticed...we ....gate or even....Michael Aspel.....moisteuriser....Monkey.
Lorane voice: Is this a wind up? All I'm getting is lots of monkey business.
Wayne text: Actually I think you're winding me up. And if you are (types then crosses out)
Lorane text: Then what?
Wayne text: I'm trying to tell you something really important, Lorane and you choose now to start being silly. So there will be ramifications, that's all.
Lorane text: Yes please.
Wayne text: What?
Lorane text: Are you going to spank me?
Wayne text: I might.
Lorane text: I've just realised. Text is working fine. Why not type your idea?
Wayne text: Okay. I think we should start our own carpet business. There's no carpet shop in this town and it's crying out for one.
Lorane text: Oh, right. What was all that about Monkeys?
Wayne text: There's a derelict site in Munkay Avenue up for auction.
Lorane: Munkay...you mean Munday?
Wayne text: That's the one.
Lorane text: And that's it?
Wayne text: And I think besides carpets we could sell designer windbreakers, as this is a seaside town.
Lorane text: with monkeys on them?